thehappymachine

Put your player on shuffle and hit the 'Next' button to get your answer to every question. You must indicate the title and artist, no matter how far-fetched it sounds.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Believe by The Bravery (hoWow)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Green Eyes by Coldplay

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Mesmerized by Lifehouse

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
A Whisper and A Clamor by Anberlin

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hole in the Head by Sugababes (okay this is slightly, no, very embarrassing. who put this song on my playlist! not me!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
French Television Dub by Head Automatica

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Powder Blue by Elbow

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Taylor by Jack Johnson

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
By The Sea by Helena Bonham Carter and Johnny Depp (HAHAHA... murderer and pie maker, appropriate?)

WHAT SONG WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Love at First Sight by Kylie Minogue (im laughing so hard inside)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen (I can tell im going to have an interesting life ahead of me)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Send Me On My Way by Rusted Root (YAY! :D thats right, discovery!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Daylight by Coldplay

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Dancing in the Moonlight by Toploader (laaadeeeedaaa ;) )

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Oo by Up Dharma Down

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Your Loving Arms by Billie Ray Martin (that is so melodramatic, its making me barf)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Happy Days Are Here Again by Danielson

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Unbelievable by Craig David (yes, when i am in a state of stupor, i laugh)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
All Time Lows by Hellogoodbye

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Fool by Marie Digby (stupid people scare me.. :|)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
She Left Me by McFly (she did? who?)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Rendevous by Craig David (i thought this was supposed to be fun? ;P

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Diamonds on Fire by Rubies

My deadly sin for the past 2 weeks: SLOTH.

I don't remember the last time i've been this lazy! I just can't seem to pick myself up and do something productive. It huuuuurts to mooooove! I wanna keep my ass glued to a couch and have TV show marathons all day/night. Actually, I think I need to go out and do something. Someone drag me somewhere! (And I do literally mean drag :P) Whaaats happening? Anything goood? Im going nuts yo! I was running/walking around my block today just to shake things off. All good except that I went around the same block, oh, about SIX TIMES. I felt like a doofus going around in circles. God knows what the guards were thinking! I can't go any farther because 1. Im afraid it might rain 2. Too tiring for the dogs 3. (Yes I left the real reason for last) Because I know I'll get lost and end up wandering the streets for two hours again. I've been meaning to ask the village's office for a map so I can study it. I want to walk there sana, and I know how to get there, but I just don't know how to get back :P Im never going to drive am I?! My sense of direction is just so whacked! I just need to get a license because apart from my passport, I have no valid IDs. Can I be any lamer?! I feel like a hermit! :))

I wanna sleep already, and its only 8:30 PM. :))

Enough of this procrastination! *Slaps self* Go change the world or something like that.

I've been staring at my paper for the past half hour or so. For some reason, the conclusion is always the hardest part. I think I really do have letting go issues hahaha.

Damn, Im getting sick :( Cough, sniffles, not good. Ive been taking in a lot of stuff; strepsils, isoprinosine, this alkaseltzer kinda thing that i threw down the drain after two sips, God knows how much vitamin C, and salabat in awhile. With all this effort it better be gone by the end of the day!

Im kinda bored, but I shouldn't be? Jaded is the word I believe. Too much of nothing! (Listen to it, by the Kooks :D) I miss the kitchen..

Back to that conclusion, this paper has been a hassle ever since last week. Off damned spot, off!

When was the last time I slept before 1 am? Bad habits die hard. :( Oh look, here I go again procrastinating. The hardest part about studying isn't studying, its staying focused haha. I bet half of you out there agree with me, amen.

Funny, I usually wake up before my alarm rings now a days. Today I woke up at 8:44, and my alarm was for 8:45. Not a significant difference but its keeping with the trend!

Eggcited, going to Singapore on the 15th till the 18th! :) Free cut + holiday = Mid-term reward. Though, this year I don't really deserve a reward because I feel like I didn't study so hard :S For the past years nalang this reward. This is the year I collect all those vacation should-have-beens!

Right, back to the Normans and Middle Ages. Dark age nga, why don't we just forget about it?!

Couple of things:

1. May you rest in peace/pieces, my dearest Razr. Kinda sad, my phone broke and its been with me through thick and thin. Oh well! If you can't reach me through my phone, you can always text my other half (logically).

2. Frequent headaches and backaches plague me! Looking forward to Friday. Chiropractor! For a whole week, I woke up with a headache and it stays that way till about noon time. Anyone know why?

3. So many reading assignments its insane. On the plus side, this is helping me regain some of my comprehension! Writing skills are still slow and rusty..... why am I talking about this? Who cares!

4. I hate the number 4, so we're going to skip this. Don't ask why.

5. In desperate need of something to look forward to, things are kinda boringgggg. The personal aspect of my life kinda doesn't exist anymore haha! Everything kinda feels like, just another item on my list of things to do. This is the impersonal semester I feel! My life is kinda defined by schedules, lists and systems.

In desperate need of some variety! Where can I get some? I hear Valium works too.

The past two days, mom has been dragging me around to get checkups here and there. Its getting kinda annoying because there is nothing wrong with me. But nooo.. she won't listen. Complete waste of time! Went to the eye doctor, then the general doctor, then the allergy doctor (who I have to go see again next week). Next thing I know, I'll end up in some shaman's shanty or something. I feel bad for May, shes on summer break and getting needles stuck in her while chugging down a wad of pills and applying who knows what to her face. Its kinda funny how she just sits there taking it all in, because arguing will just turn things ugly :P One doctor I do wanna visit is the chiropractor! Massage :D

Its weird how there isn't much work for school yet. Just like last semester, nothing in the beginning. Oh boy, its going to be a landslide towards the end :| bracing myself. Thank goodness I took just 18 units! Or maybe thats why it feels so light? Heck, the Culinaire stuff is much much more work than my school stuff. Or maybe my priorities are screwed up? So many maybes!

I was watching the ending of Transformers with dad earlier, wooo I've forgotten how awesome that movie is! Add on to favorites :)

You, in the land down under, I miss you!

Anyway, back to my Anthropology readings. :)

Im so loving the weather right now. Its dark and rainy and cool :D These are a few of my favorite things, ho hum.

Just because you take initiative and try to get things done, people start thinking you have alternative motives. My intentions are to get things done and to get out of it as quick as possible. If we just sat there like ducks we wouldn't get anywhere, which would most likely bite us back in the ass. I hope im not misunderstood and seen as some egotistic, proud being. Everyone has to know that I have this problem of caring too much. :P

Damnnnn, dead on!

Take it, lemme know what you got. Im curious :D

I thought it was all over! No running back, that chapter is closed. It wasn't a loss :)

Yea that probably didn't make much sense. Scatterbrain, I am. Too lazy to explain something that should be insignificant.

Second week of school. Still not feeling the love yo! Will start to be proactive about it if situation doesn't improve soon. :) There are too many people in school I don't know where to start! Haha. :P

Im not going to you. In my opinion, I've done enough already. Your turn. The door is slowly closing.

The world has so much to offer. SO much, that I dont think its worth it to tie yourself down. So much that we can start stuffing our mouths so much not realizing that we cant chew anymore. I think I am slowing trying to find that balance, just like a perfect bite: balanced and worth savoring (as kitty would put it haha). The stupid thing to do, would be to continue stuffing your face because of pride. Making excuses or finding scapegoats are unnecessary; we get it, everyone is human and everyone has their limits. Admitting it will simply show you are responsible enough to spread yourself evenly. Keep stuffing your mouth, and people are bound to call you a pig. In cases like these, I think id rather keep my credibility, sanity, and energy. There is a difference between working hard, and overworking. I used to think that overworking myself would simply inconvenience me. Now, I see how it affects the people around as well. I just hope that I didnt let anyone down too much whilst blinded by all that work. I can't say that I wont ever overload myself again (im addicted to it!), but I will make try to make sure that my responsibilities are all equally looked after. If the quality of one goes down, quality of all goes down and i'll know that i have to let something go soon.

First week of school and already 2 free cuts! Looks like im not the only one still on vacation mode haha. My ambitions are growing again. Like I said, this world has so much to offer. I cannot WAIT to go out and explore them. I think i'll be needing a job that requires me to travel alot haha (recent discovery as a result of introspection!). Im just worried about being to keep up with myself :P Im not yet 20 and already im tired haha! But so far so good.

After the nth attempt, we finally got to watch Kung Fu Panda. Cuteness! Po's determination is inspiring haha! And I love, how he loves food soooo much :) Next on the list: Made of Honor. And uhh, all the backlogged DVDs I have here at home! And I MUST MUST MUST squeeze reading into my daily schedule. My attention span has been going down the drain. Im gald that rainy season is here now! Makes for perfect curl-up-with-a-hot-mug-and-good-book afternoons. See how bad my vocabulary has gotten? I've resorted to making up my own words!

Better fix that... right... now.

Im getting mixed feelings about school. Previous semesters, school has always felt like home. When school starts things just kinda work. This time however, it doesn't feel like such a big part of me. I mean, I know its probably not a bad thing (even quite the contrary) but i miss that comfortable feeling. Maybe its the new campus? All the new faces? The fact that we're so out numbered? Im not feeling like myself! Feeling a tad void, a lot stupider, and like im losing direction. Giving it a few weeks, maybe it'll be better :) And if not, hey it might be a new chapter! One thing hasnt changed though - I still have a bunch of things to preoccupy me. Theres alot of cleaning up and documenting to do. My poor poor neglected desk it looking more and more like Patayas as the weeks go by! Im so disorganized, which makes my head disorganized and confused haha. I will ALSO make it a point to read more, to hopefully solve this problem of feeling really stupid.

Now very randomly.....

Im missing Christmas terribly! Im listening to rat pack/50s christmas songs and pretending its super duper cold just to relive the best fricking time of the year. Toffee nut latte, come back! Next thing you know, ill be in the kitchen making ginger bread cookies and hot chocolate. Yes, in a tropical country, middle of the year. Anyone wanna join me in this madness? :))

P.S. I just realized how whacked this entry is... :-| FINE i can be complicated. I bet its some kind of hormonal imbalance

Summer is almost over, just a week and a half to go. I would like to thank, hug, and hug again all the people who helped make this one wicked summer. :D I have never done and rode so many things in my life! This is one summer that'll be hard to beat. Actually, it might be impossible to beat. Im deathly sure that things will change this year, i just dont know if its for the worse or better. Kinda scary. Id rather go hide in a cave and not deal with it but then, id be white beyond recognition. I think we've made the most of this summer. Didnt exactly get the lazy vacation I had in mind... it was better. :) Traveling gives you so many epiphanys, its an epiphany overload! Anywho, breakfast time, updates later.

Lessons will repeat themselves until learned. :) Thats all I have to say.

I can be so sadistic, sometimes it surprises me. Its sick. People (and animals), beware.

That aside...

Im super duper excited to be jumping around from place to place starting end of May! This is going to be fun! But first, to get rid of this cold that crept up on me all of a sudden.

Work was ok, first and last day on sautee station! Hmmm, its a quick station with a variety of dishes and it requires quite a bit or practice. Wish i had more time! I know id totally zone out (serious mode, scary game face, the type that supposedly freaks people out haha) which is awesome possum. And when you get the hang of it, and your throwing dishes out left and right, what a great feeling! Tomorrow though, ill be in the fish station. Fun fun FUN. Expecting to be covered in blood :D (see, i told you so! im sadistic.) Today, i was the chicken murderer. So the normal sautee guy, when he cleans the whole chickens for roast chicken, the scrapes the insides with a dinner spoon right? Whenever he does, his eyes are POPPING out of his sockets. Like i said before, if he were constipated those things would most likely just fall out. o.o He looked like a serial killer on a rampage! Today, i found out why. I was given that job, I and it was deathly hard to keep a straight face! I had to to use a fork to clean out the lungs, and liver, and kidneys, and .... you dont want me to elaborate. :)) BASTA. I had to keep telling myself "don't make weird faces. look tough. this is not gross". Then the next minute i find myself with a skewed mouth, flared nostrils, breathing through my mouth. What an experience! Whats funny is, after you do that, you have to bathe the chickens! Like, give it a salt rub down and take it a shower and all. So first you gut hell out of it, then you lovingly give it a spa treatment. Talk about bi-polar! Ah, just another day in the kitchen :P

Anyway, better get going. Have to pack!

I wanna O.D. on Isoprinosine. Feeling sick :(

Im so overwhelmed right now, its like everyone is down in the dumps and I wanna make sure that they're all ok but theres only so much emotional support one person can dish out! Best thing to do right now, is NOT jump on the bandwagon and drag everyone's spirits down even more. :) Despite all the angry entries, im actually not THAT bitter. This is just my outlet for ranting so i feel better, hence, the happy machine! I have alot to be happy about, and it doesnt take much to make me happy. I guess, I should just be thankful that my happiness isn't controlled by one thing but rather, I can find happiness by myself.

Im slowly feeling responsibility melting away, especially with EFWS. I went there today and well, came out with no assignments and nothing to worry about. Letting go is the hardest thing you'll ever know Haha. Crap. I hope that this coming semester, I dont regret letting go of some of my responsibilities. Im sure most people will be busy with school, and everything else, and im afraid that now that I have more time, i'll be bored out of my wits with no one to bug. Ill get a job? :P haha lets see!

Taken from MM!

( Quiz! )

Wow, this is quite accurate!

( From Peaches, just because ive never really done one of these before :P )

Its raining cats and dogs outside, which I miss :) However, its still hotttttt.
Things are starting to normalize, or at least im learning to cope now. Nothing super interesting happening lately! No one is online, which sucks because I wanna talk to someone :( ho hum. Oli's ipod is my best friend right now haha.
Kinda looking forward to going to work next week, things been going pretty good in that area!

Ive been so useless these past two days, i dont think ive spent so much time at home in awhile! Kinda refreshing, but im getting bored (which is why im writing this). Im thinking, maybe i should go somewhere? :) My parents have been proposing it, but with work i dont think i can till end of May/early June. Boo. Must find ways and means to entertain myself :P

Will:
1.)read the kuba divin book
2.)try a new recipe
3.)run

Watched pathology yesterday, talk about testing your morals! We got to the cinema a bit late alread, and brought food for dinner right? Just in time for the part where they were cutting people open. Yea, didn't finish my food haha. Then, watched 27 Dresses (i love her personality!) and Pursuit of Happiness on HBO (i think ive found a favorite movie :D).

Im starting to miss school believe it or not! I know im gonna eat my words when June comes along haha.

Dont blame it on the sunshine, dont blame it on the moonlight, dont blame it on the good times, blame it on the boogieeee. Im so bored....!

Im ok with average but the thing is, others arent.
Should I be what I wanna be or what I should be? Why do you have to be great when your already happy?
Why didnt we come with instruction manuals!

First day today, need to start conditioning my hands for hard work again haha. It was actually pretty good, they didn't tuck me in a little corner to peel potatoes or carrots all day. I got to do some dressings, finishing and plating of some desserts, prep for the station. They kept calling for "GG" at the pass right? Im so accustomed to Pau using the term gg, so that got me wondering why do they keep saying good game after calling the orders? Yan pala its galungong haha. Yea, im getting dumber. :P

I love Filipino food!

On the list for tonight, finish editing a paper for my sis then chateau zucchinis, carrots, turnips and make fries. Yes we're bringing kitchen work home now haha. Better get started! Probably will edit this post after I get bored editing the paper.